It is difficult to draw something for someone when you can’t help but be sure that they’re going to hate whatever you do.
This is probably just transference, since I find more and more lately that I hate my own work, but it is distracting all the same.
I’m also none too good at updating, because I am apparently bad at drawing when my GPA does not depend on it. I am pretty sure the winter sads are to blame. I’m sure some form of exercise would help, but it’s just way too cold outside and have you seen how expensive gym memberships are?
I was going to post some birds on a telephone wire that I doodled on my break at work, but I seem to have misplaced it. Just trust me when I say that it was very scribbly.
i haven’t really been up to much, which probably doesn’t warrant a blog entry but i feel like i ought to keep some kind of commentary going so everything’s not so static. right now i am in kind of an awkward transitional phase. i’m staying with mike in north carolina and in a week we’re going to scout for apartments in michigan, and then going to my home in illinois for some doctor’s appointments and a wedding and probably a yard sale of a lot of my old stuff. after that it’s all kind of vague how long i’ll be in one place before we move to michigan and start living together on our own as grown-ups.
so far all my fears re: leaving school are being realized but only because i’m letting them. i haven’t drawn anything since “finishing” up my final projects and i haven’t made any outstanding efforts to do so. most of my paper and tools went home with my parents and there’s not a lot of room for me to feel comfortable enough to bust out the ink or any of the messier tools i brought with me. this all probably comes off as a lot of flimsy excuses, which it pretty much is. i need to do some extensive brainstorming and come up with some summer projects that would travel reasonably well so i don’t just spend all day aimlessly surfing the internet (you know, like i have been for the past week or two).